Currently Listening Almost Here By The Academy Is... see related

urggg i now have dish pan hands i spent the last half hour cleaning out the frig cause we're moving

i hate cleaning

school is tomorrow yeah

Currently Reading Teach Me By R.A. Nelson see related

 finally a chance to rest... but not really i;ve been busy with robotics which is where we build robots for competition i've got it again tomorrow busy busy busy i wish i could make it all stop

in other news i joined darkpoetry today yeah me

its been the same old same old i yelled at some people some people yelled at me i got embarressed life goes on

Currently Listening Never Trust Anything That Bleeds By American Eyes see related

i just got in from work i hate that job really i do.  tomorrow i'm booked solide.  i'm up at six thirty for robotics.  yes i'm in robotics sounds kind of geeky?  well it is.  i'm there until three then i work from 4-9  tell me you don't envy me.  who wants to switch lives i up for anything wait scratch that i'm up for most things. 

i have writer's block i haven't written a poem in ages maybe i only had that one period in me and if that was all i had well i'm gald for it. 

"in the grand scheme of things i am the proverbial dirt... and you are an afternoon sun shower"

what do you think it means?  i really don't know these things just come to me.

in other news shinera is ducking and dogding bright side i get a laugh that was mean right well maybe not quite mean but not good.  i swear i'm working on it.  January resolution?  BE NICE.

if i could sum today up in one word it would be one big sigh one of both relief and frustration i say alot of things i don;t mean and people's feelings get hurt and i don;t want to hurt them i just can't help myself and i feel so bad after wards

what's wrong with me?

i;m not a bad person honest i'm not well not always

Currently Reading Middle Age: A Romance By Joyce Carol Oates see related

If you asked me i'd tell you i was a thinker and that this eventually will be my downfall.  i could get lost, consumed in my thoguhts and because of this i have come to several realizations and come to several conclusions.  i am afriad of being lonely.  no, not afriad to be the only one in a room.  but afriand that i will be by myself for ever a lonely spinster.  despite my fears of this i long to be an adult i want ot grow up and forget the mundane worrings of childhood.  i want a place of my own i want to buy plates and pick wall colors.  strange right?  but this is what i thought of and this is what i want.

i think i have fallen in like and this is horrible